We have been listening to Christmas music since late October. While I haven't tired of the music itself, I have noticed the excitement that first accompanied those joyful melodies, has begun to wane. A spirit of reflection has replaced the excitement, bringing many happy memories to mind. These memories however, eventually lead me back to... Continue Reading →
One day, I had found myself standing in the adult diaper section of the grocery store. I was angrily swiping away tears, trying to decide what size my husband would need. Once I got home, I had allowed myself to become filled with rage. How could radiation do this to my husband!?
Ringing the doorbell, I nervously clutched my casserole dish closer. The door opened, and a woman with dark hair smiled at me. "Come in, sweetie", she said. Following her through the family room, I noticed a hospital bed set up in the corner. There was other medical equipment near the bed. I quickly looked away....
That day, I allowed a tiny seed of doubt to be planted in my heart. That tiny seed then began to grow, until it bloomed into an ugly blossom of worry.
Before the chemo was able to get it's gripping arms around my husbands body, we celebrated by going out for lunch. As we ate, we talked of all God had done for us in the last chapter of our lives. What did we learn? How would our lives be different? What advice would we give others?
Not only had God allowed all of this struggle into our lives the last two years, but His hand was there the whole time, leading us. Excitement began to replace our wonder, and thankfulness.
As I look forward to life returning to normal for our family, I also feel a little timid in leaving this valley behind. You see, God has been here with us.
Our teenagers learned of Daddy's cancer in an unusual way. My son was listening outside our bedroom door. He, of course, ran down the stairs to share what he had heard with his older sister.
I have debated writing this post for a few months now. It is not my intent to whine, complain, or cause discouragement! God has been SO GOOD to us while on this journey! However, many have asked me how Gabe is "really" doing? So I thought I'd share with you, what he probably won't tell... Continue Reading →